I thought being a teenager was suppose to be fun I guess it is if your not two hundred and fifty pounds in the twelfth grade. Every year I say to myself i’m going to lose weight as you see it has yet to happen. I didn’t know exactly who to blame myself or my mother it wouldn’t be fair for me to blame my father because he could never understand how it feels to be a woman let alone a fat woman. I’ve hated me every since the second grade, one day in class we were having show and tell I brought my stuffed pig animal and before I could talk about Jason shouted from the back of the classroom look it’s a smaller version of her. That’s when I learned the meaning of humiliation.
As the years went by the pounds came on, I would indulge in my favorite foods and make sweets my best friend. When ever there was a bad day at school or at home, which was usually everyday. I knew that there was comfort lurking in the cabinets of the kitchen just waiting to wrap their arms around me and make me feel like no one else could. I can honestly say I loved food more than I loved life it self. My mother and father would fight constantly about my weight he would say to her why don’t you take her to join a he
Whenever my parents went out I wasn’t invited they didn’t want anyone to make the connection that I belonged to them. My childhood had past me by there was nothing that I actually wanted to remember. I was a lost cause and there wasn’t much to do about it. Mother knew that she would never have any grandchildren that we would never be able to go shopping together I would never get married and least of all I would never be what she wanted me to be. There was no way for me to change what I had become, was there a way for me to change the person I was becoming? My only close friend was Jenny I could tell her anything we were so much alike, but at the same time so different. Jenny was an outcast at school also hers was by choice.
She had become addicted to cocaine I didn’t know that it was that easy to become an addict. I only sniffed a couple of lines and I was hooked instantly this was the most amazing feeling that id ever known. Not only did I feel good, but also I could go for days without eating I lost twenty pounds in less then three weeks. I didn’t know how I would feed my new found desire that I had to have by any means necessary. I had been on coke binge for two months in class I would just stare off into wonderland not knowing what was going on. My teachers couldn’t understand what was happening to me I never missed any days of school in the past, but now I w
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