Your going to be the first to go to school in America. Your going to be the first to graduate from high school. Your going to be the first to go to a university they would say. Since I was four years old I made myself as well as my parents the promise of fulfilling all of this. The first though, why the first, why so much pressure? With the feelings of pride and hopes for a promising future also came the fears of failure and disappointment to not just myself but my whole family as well. I was born in Istanbul, turkey at a time when things weren’t as modern as they are now. We lived in a tall city like building that my grandfather