I was born into turbulent times. My generation was in the midst of experiencing the French Revolution. Like my father and grandfather before me, who were musicians at the court of the local prince, the Elector Max Friedrich, I too inherited musical talent. However, I was unlike my father in many ways. My father was an alcoholic and left the family when I was of a very young age. At age eleven I, being the oldest child in the family was forced to support my family (my mother and two brothers). For this reason, I searched around to find the best job I could, which just happened to be the assistant organist in the court chapel. A year later, at age twelve I was promoted to harpsichordist in the court orchestra. This job opened up many options

Death I do not fear. Life has been a constant physical and mental battle to survive. There is nothing here in this world left for me to quietly enjoy, now, here I can lie down and find peace. For I shall soon be dead, but my life, my music shall live on forever.

From this moment on in my life, my imagination took control. Since I could not hear the world’s sonorous beauty, I was forced to imagine their sounds vividly in my mind.

After the deafness transferred from partial to full, I separated myself from civilization and on orders from my doctors; I retired at age 32, in 1802 to the village of Heiligenstadt located outside Vienna. I was torn between destructive forces in my soul and my desire to live and create. “But little more and I would have put an end to my life. Only art… withheld me. Ah, It seemed impossible to leave this world until I had produced all that I felt called upon to produce, and so I endured this wretched existence.” That autumn, I contemplated suicide. On October 6th 1802, I went as far as writing my last will and testament (the “Heiligenstädter Testament”) and mailing it to my brothers Carl and Johann. In i

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