Although Susan was thought to have the perfect life, it seems that it has turned out to be anything but that. Susan married Matthew Rawlings in a wedding that everyone believed was the perfect match. After having four beautiful kids together; a boy, a girl, then twins, and living in the house of her childhood dreams, one would think that Susan would have all the necessary elements for her happiness. Yet, she needed more. She believed she needed to find her identity after signing away her life to helping other people. But it wasn’t that she needed to learn to be herself, rather that she needed to be alone

Susan did what she thought was necessary in order to fulfill her quest. Although not morally correct, in a sense, she did do the best thing. With an unfaithful husband and a foreign exchange student already taking her place, her freedom was awaiting her. She took a drastic step where it was needed, and as a result, she was better for it.

As soon as Susan found her resting place, life as she knew it tunneled downwards into a deep pit of despair. When she had finally reached the pinnacle of her peaceful state, she discovered that Matthew had searched her out. Knowing this broke the barrier that enclosed her place of tranquility. It was this that made her think that she would only be completely alone if she was by herself. Gradually, her role as the mistress of the house, that identity which confined her, was given to another by her own command. She realized that the only way she would truly be free was to stop being Mrs. Matthew Rawlings. The roles which clung to her had to be left behind so that she could move on and finally find what she had been longing for so long, freedom. She needed to stop being what everyone else wanted her to be, and just become a lonely soul, destined to happiness by her own solitude. This is what pushed her to t

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