Alcholic

The connotation of these words suggests sneakiness, and his father's drinking is not open for discussion even though everyone knows exactly what Sanders" father is doing. The drinking makes his father a liar to himself and others. The second paragraph in Sanders" work begins with his father gurgling down hidden alcohol. His father "stashes the bottle" for later use (138). He is going to wait until his son has left the garage and then continue sucking down the bottle. His father thrives to survive by sucking down that alcohol just like a baby thrives to live by sucking on a bottle or nipple. The conversations between father and son are brash, almost distant, and quick:" "What's up buddy." "Sky's up," I answer playing along" (138). The conversation is quick so that the father can get back to drinking, but the conversation takes place so that the father can have the reassurance that his son is okay. In reality his is not because he answers by playing along with his father's conspiracy. Not only does the secret affect his father, but the lies affect the son. His son is forced to secretly conceal his feelings of "hate," "love," "fear," and "failure" (139). He felt that he caused the drinking and rage through disappointing his father in almost everything that he had done. A lot of the disappointing tasks that Sanders felt like he did not do properly for his father were adult's jobs, making money, fixing the broker washer and burst pipes, specifically the typical husbands" jobs of the fifties and sixties (139). If Sanders" father was not drunk almost all of the time then he could have provided better for his family. His father would sneak off to the barn with a "lump under his coat" (139, 142). That lump is the eventual liver or kidney cancer or heart disease that took his life (145). It snuck up on his father at age sixty four when his heart burst on Sanders" brother's linoleum floor (138).