It's evident that Plath is truly fascinated by the idea of not only dying but being "burned alive"." She's intrigued by the idea of experiencing such a tormented way of death. It also shows how cynical and twisted her perception of life is. Pat Macpherson, the author of Reflecting on The Bell Jar states that rather than predominantly ascribing symbolic meaning to the author's use of language, objects, relationships or attempting to understand Esther's inner turmoil through the chaos of the outside world, the novel can be cleanly outlined in terms of Esther's psychological illness and her skewed perception of the world around her (44). .
In "The Ball Jar," it becomes clear that Esther's surroundings ultimately lead up to her psychological breakdown. The need to fulfill herself becomes overbearingly oppressive as she struggles to maintain what little sanity she still possesses. On returning home, the suicidal mindset that Esther is in has increasingly altered, for the first time she attempts to take her own life; "That morning I had tried to hang myself " (Plath 158). This shows that Esther has undoubtedly lost all connection with life. After her failed attempt to take her own life Esther makes reference to Doctor Gordon and his "shock machine."" This of course ties back into the idea of being electrocuted which at first struck an interest in Esther but consequently once experienced she immediately took a dislike too. Desperate and disappointed, Esther tries yet again to steal her life away, "The only thing left to do was to drown myself then and there"" (Plath 160). Esther never clearly states as to why she's so set on taking her own life and ultimately it seems that she doesn't quite know the answer herself. Once again Pat Macpherson's, reflecting on "The Bell Jar" states that Esther's suicide attempt becomes an act of retaliation against suburbia (1). To some, life is anything but fragile: it's neglected, abused, and taken for granted but to most life is really quite a beautiful thing.