The previous job I had was higher management and towards the end of that six year position, I grew tired of the nights of wondering if the doing the shuffle to make sense of the work I was doing was right for me and started to question how fulfilling it was for me. I started thinking of other things in my life I wanted to do and become. I started researching other professions and went on a variety of job interviews for positions out of my normal character to see if I could spark something inside me to kick start the level of success I wanted for myself.
I had a passion for interior decorating, so I read up on that and started looking at schools of interior design, but even though it was a hidden treasure of a hobby for me, it did not light the fire inside me to give me that abstract concept I was looking for in a position. I then ended up taking a lower level position, thinking that I did not want to deal with the higher responsibilities of management anymore and that I wanted to simply blend in with the other employees. The idea I drew in my mind was a simple one. I wanted to raise my children and I knew that having a demanding career would not allow me to grow with them the way I wanted to. I even looked into being a paralegal, for at one point, I wanted to become a lawyer, but that dream soon fizzled when I did research and attended classes where my instructor bluntly stated that the program was not for someone with a life or family, as the profession demanded so much of your time and energy.
After being in my new position for almost three or so years, I grew bored and soon found myself mastering the work and seeking to excel more in more in my position. I had constant thoughts on how I could take my position to the next level, achieving comfortable levels of success at that time amongst my bosses and coworkers. Each time I achieved some recognition at work, I found myself wanting more of it, like an infectious disease, I could see that taking over me and soon I was doing more work for other bosses, but without the limelight shining on me, as I was more a behind the scenes kind of person.
