I don't know why. I am so sorry! Why did God do this to me. I have never been happy. I wish I was happy. I wish I made my mother proud. I am nothing! I tried so hard to find happiness. But you know me I hate everything. I have no other choice. What have I become? I am so sorry".
Mentally Kip was damaged and unstable, he had no control of his emotions and at often times was in a state of blinded rage and frustrations. He knew his parents were great people but he still killed them, that shows you just how unable he is to control or stop his emotions whether they be good or bad, at time's it's almost as if he's two different people, almost like he's schizophrenic. .
Sociologically Kip was an outsider, he didn't really fit in to any group and mingled through, he had a few good friends, but that was about it. Kip like any other teen is heavily influenced by his peers and friends, kind of like monkey see monkey do who ever he is around that's who he's going to imitate and be like. For instance the shoplifting incident he was friends with people that aren't exactly model citizens, had he been friends with others I doubt this would have happened. A really big social event that could have triggered such hate and anger would be in high school when he first fell in love. The girl kind of played with his emotions, not intentionally but for someone that was already troubled the pressure from that kind of "rejection" was really hard on him you can tell he really liked her and that she broke his heart and that he had had it with the whole concept of love and emotions, the following is from his journal . " Every time I talk to her, I have a small amount of hope. But then she will tear it right down. It feels like my heart is breaking. But is that possible. I am so consumed with hate all of the time. Could I ever love anyone? I have feelings, but do I have a heart that's not black and full of animosity?" .
