Yet once again alcohol and drug use is the ever present constant. The day of the week and group of people may change, yet the constant always remains the same. .
The directions for the second week of the log were a drastic change from the first week. This week was based on observations made without personally participating in drug and alcohol use. At the beginning of this project I was weary of the second week. As horrible as it sounds, I was convinced there was no way I could go out as I normally would and abstain from using drugs and alcohol. At the same time I did not believe that I was addicted to any particular drug or alcohol and I was aware that you can have fun without being intoxicated. My views were a complete contradiction and very confusing. I decided to use the second week as a type of personal test to see where I truly stood on the issue. Would I really need to get wasted in order to go out and have fun? Would that mean that when it comes down to it, the friendships I have are just based around intoxication? I had a lot of questions that I hoped this second week would help clarify. The second week started on Monday September 9th and I was happy that I had a lot of work to do that week. In addition to giving up drugs and alcohol, I also was going to try my hardest to not smoke cigarettes. This posed a major problem considering I have been smoking since ninth grade. I know that I am addicted to nicotine and that I should quit but I know the only way to seriously quit is if you want to. Though I eventually want to quit, I still enjoy smoking. Yet I decided to try the very best I could and refrain from everything. The first day I only took a few puffs of AM's cigarette and I was proud of myself, especially since all of my roommates smoke. Throughout the course of the week I smoked a total of eight cigarettes. That night my friends went to the bar but I stayed home with RH to watch a movie.