My sister started dating another guy, I hope he's actually nice. Overall I think my life is going up. I imagine it as a plane ride not a roller coaster, because instead of only going up, I'm going up and dealing with turbulence and landing with a risk of crashing, and I'm trying to make that enough.
Love always,.
Charlie.
September 19, 1992.
Dear Friend,.
I'm trying to understand why people do what they do again. I went people watching and found myself on top of a bridge and I felt powerful knowing that what my actions are can determine a lot. It's hard to understand, I wasn't planning on doing anything, I'm not upset I just felt powerful. I don't think I have a lot of power. I go to school because it's what my parents expect of me. Ever since Patrick and Brad have begun speaking to each other again I haven't been updated on the real gossip. I hope all is well with them. Yesterday I texted Vienna on the 18th like Bob told me to. I thought real hard about what I should say, it was a genuine issue. I ended up saying "Hello, how are you doing Vienna? By the way It's Charlie texting you." It took Vienna around three hours to answer. I just sat and waited beside my phone. I've never really texted anyone. When she answered she said "I'm well! How about yourself!" I like to think that the exclamation points aren't sarcastic even though I have a strong feeling they are. We proceeded to talk about nothing, it was everything to me. I think that she's really the kind of girl I need in my life, she's kind of the full package and I am scared because it has taken me a very long time to stop feeling this way about Sam. I guess that it's time for me to participate and in doing some maybe I will find a new infinity to step into.
