Nonetheless, Becket remains completely loyal to the king; however, since he is obliged to serve the man who essentially oppresses his people, he hides behind a fazade. Becket's inability to reveal his true character not only plagues his own worries, but also is realized by others. The wise Archbishop notices Becket's nature is elusive and detached, "as if seeking his real self- (Anouilh 15). By asking Becket for his love, even the usually nave King tries to penetrate through Becket's apathetic barrier. Since Becket's life lacks any real ordering principle, he feels he is "obliged to improvise his honor- (Anouilh 36). It is interesting to note that perhaps Becket speaks in the third person, as opposed to the assured "I- because he lacks self-realization and any meaningful substance in his life. Becket feels he achieves the bare minimum in terms of honor while serving the King. Becket's internal struggle, so apparent to others, intensifies "this man who "adores honor- (Anouilh 5) "is tormented by the prospect that he will never discover his genuine self, wondering, "Where is Becket's honor?- (Anouilh 36). Becket cannot live his life anymore as an entity void of essence; his quest for self-recognition will soon take a dramatic turn.
A great transformation occurs in Becket when he finally finds true honor in his "life's work- (Anouilh 94) defending God. After being forced by the King to accept the position of Archbishop, the resentful Becket realizes he "could not serve both God and [the king]- (Anouilh 61). True to his words, Becket, who once addressed the King as his "Lord-, (Anouilh 60) now serves a different Lord: God. Becket's decision to break permanently from his former friend demonstrates the willpower he possesses, to part from a life of comfort and venture into a different world. Yet Becket has no regrets; up until serving God, he has "never enjoyed [himself] so much in [his] whole life- (Anouilh 63).